Monday, August 25, 2008
Okay so maybe i'm waisting my time with you, i need someone diffrent like someone that likes me, like really. You know i like you but you wont do shit about it. So then maybe i dont need you like i thought i did. from now on i dont like anyone! Actually, i do, but it doesnt count. I will always like you, i mean i still do but i want to try to get over you, you make me think you might like me one day and not the next, like give it a break, well thats what im doing giving it a break. I want to date other people and not think about you, i mean i want to like someone else, i want to just give up, even though its really hard, i do. i want a new start and to not like you anymore. Maybe in High School i'll have better luck, oh but i want you to know that i got to know this guy and he's really nice, the only think is is that he has a girlfriend, but i want to wait it out and see if they maybee break up, because i think im starting to fall for him a bit. Even though i dont want to, and i do not want to tell anyone, because like i said he has a Girlfriend, but i mean, its better than liking you because you 'dont care' remember? Anywaysi will always like you, but i just want to live my life more, cause really, with you im not getting anywheres.
what we could have been, 6:16 PM.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
So the concert was awesome. I just got home from it actually lol, me and my friend Britt had an awesome time. We seen this fat guy taking pictures of himself it was so FUNNY! My friend was like what the hell is he doing? Why is he taking pictures of himself is he trying to break the camera. It was funny because it was true. cute is what we aim for was AMAZING! i loved them :] well thats enough of that, i'll ttyl. Bye bye.
what we could have been, 11:16 AM.
Saturday, August 23, 2008
I need you, i love you, but you dont need me and you dont love me.
When i say i love someone i mean it so much, expecially because i usallly never tell people i love then unless its true. I hate it how people yell it out at people like when you've been dating somone for 3 days you dont tell them you love them because its to early and its probably not true. The only people that know what love feels like is people that are in love. What is love anyways? I mean like really no one knows what love feels like. Why does everyone want love so much? It only hurts you. I mean like really. Thats all it does. But i want it to. I mean i want to date the guy ive been liking for like ever. So i guess its true everyone does want it. The thing about love is that it will hit you when you least expect it.
When i say i love someone i mean it so much, expecially because i usallly never tell people i love then unless its true. I hate it how people yell it out at people like when you've been dating somone for 3 days you dont tell them you love them because its to early and its probably not true. The only people that know what love feels like is people that are in love. What is love anyways? I mean like really no one knows what love feels like. Why does everyone want love so much? It only hurts you. I mean like really. Thats all it does. But i want it to. I mean i want to date the guy ive been liking for like ever. So i guess its true everyone does want it. The thing about love is that it will hit you when you least expect it.
what we could have been, 11:58 AM.
Friday, August 22, 2008
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=55PLMSPijmc
This video is AMAZING! So one time i was sitting with my friend Colin and Austin at school, and we were doing some Math. I suck at math so i was trying to figure out a question then i yell out 'I AM A BANANA!' :] it was so funny!
This video is AMAZING! So one time i was sitting with my friend Colin and Austin at school, and we were doing some Math. I suck at math so i was trying to figure out a question then i yell out 'I AM A BANANA!' :] it was so funny!
what we could have been, 11:29 PM.
I want you, i want you so bad. Lol, well the beatles song 'i want you' reminds me of you. I want you. I mean i want you to want me, does that make sence? Probably not but i will explain . I really like you as you already know and i want to date you. Even though i like being single i want to be in a relationship with you. I want you to like me for me and not for anything else. I want you to give me a chance because i think maybe you would like me, people say that we woul b a good couple but you dont see it that way. So whatever. I guess im just going to have to wait it out or get over you.
what we could have been, 10:50 PM.
So today i went to the movies with my friend Brandon. The movie we seen was Death Race. It was so good. Everytime i go to the movies i always see my friends brother :/ I was like do you stalk me? Cause everytime i go to the movies your there and you sit 2 rows behind me. Its really weird. Anyways today i bought school supplies and sneakers! I got the pair i wanted! ;) I love them. They make me happy expecially cause there ROXY!
And tomorrow im going to the Simple Plan concert. I cant wait to see Cute is what we aim for. :) They're awesome. I love them! Well i should be going, bye! :]
And tomorrow im going to the Simple Plan concert. I cant wait to see Cute is what we aim for. :) They're awesome. I love them! Well i should be going, bye! :]
what we could have been, 6:54 PM.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Its been almost a year since you passed away. And i miss you so bad! I miss you Aunt Rose! I got a tattoo for you did you see it? I bet you watched me get it from heaven. I know that you and uncle Roger are looking after me and the family. We all miss you both so much. Its crazy to think that you two passed away. We miss you everyday of our lives. We really do.
Aunt Rose i love you so much! I can't belive your gone. I still havent went to see your grave stone and things. I dont know it just doesnt seem right. I'm not avoiding it trust me, it just doesnt feel right to be looking at it because it doesnt seem like your gone. I still dont belive it. Some times i even think your still alive.
But i dont want to be sad because i know that you'd want me to be happy. I do feel like crying sometimes but i hold it in. Like a few moments ago i almost cried but i took a deep breath and said 'dont cry she wouldnt want you to.' And i know you wouldnt want me to.
I think i might add on to your tattoo on my back and get one for grandmere or get one that says the day that you died or your name or something i dont know. I really want to get a music note because our whole family LOVES music. So i might get that or when i have a kid or something i want to get his/hers name on the top of my foot. So you like those ideas aunt Rosie? Well i should probably be getting to sleep i just wanted to talk to you because i miss you.
I love you! Love Caitlin <3
Aunt Rose i love you so much! I can't belive your gone. I still havent went to see your grave stone and things. I dont know it just doesnt seem right. I'm not avoiding it trust me, it just doesnt feel right to be looking at it because it doesnt seem like your gone. I still dont belive it. Some times i even think your still alive.
But i dont want to be sad because i know that you'd want me to be happy. I do feel like crying sometimes but i hold it in. Like a few moments ago i almost cried but i took a deep breath and said 'dont cry she wouldnt want you to.' And i know you wouldnt want me to.
I think i might add on to your tattoo on my back and get one for grandmere or get one that says the day that you died or your name or something i dont know. I really want to get a music note because our whole family LOVES music. So i might get that or when i have a kid or something i want to get his/hers name on the top of my foot. So you like those ideas aunt Rosie? Well i should probably be getting to sleep i just wanted to talk to you because i miss you.
I love you! Love Caitlin <3
what we could have been, 11:38 PM.
I hate this!
I need to get skinny! Expecially because school is like what 12 days away?
I need to look pretty for school, since im going to a new one that is. I want to look pretty and skinny and have awesome hair. And i want to be popular. But if i hang out with you then i wont be im sorry but every one hates you behind your back. People might not tell you but its true and i can understand why. Your to attachive. You call me everyday saying oh hang out with me! Well i do have lots of other friends to you know. I mean i want to be your friend and everything just dont get mad because i dont hang out with you like everyday. Like really. I do have more people in my life than just you. Its pretty bad when my Grand-mere even thinks your obsessive. Every time i talk to her she goes ' everytime she calls and your out with your friend she'll be like well who's she out with? Where is she? Whats she doing?' Like really i have more friends! And so do you. Like Sara and Shelby and all them like you. Anyways i just want to be left alone sometimes and i cant when you always call me and are like i miss you i need to see you. Its been like a day! Get over it!
Anyways i still love you with all my heart but i dont want to get a name. I mean yes i am going to hang out with you just not every second of everyday. And if you think thats a dick move then oh well my world doesnt revolve around you. Sorry its harsh.
I need to get skinny! Expecially because school is like what 12 days away?
I need to look pretty for school, since im going to a new one that is. I want to look pretty and skinny and have awesome hair. And i want to be popular. But if i hang out with you then i wont be im sorry but every one hates you behind your back. People might not tell you but its true and i can understand why. Your to attachive. You call me everyday saying oh hang out with me! Well i do have lots of other friends to you know. I mean i want to be your friend and everything just dont get mad because i dont hang out with you like everyday. Like really. I do have more people in my life than just you. Its pretty bad when my Grand-mere even thinks your obsessive. Every time i talk to her she goes ' everytime she calls and your out with your friend she'll be like well who's she out with? Where is she? Whats she doing?' Like really i have more friends! And so do you. Like Sara and Shelby and all them like you. Anyways i just want to be left alone sometimes and i cant when you always call me and are like i miss you i need to see you. Its been like a day! Get over it!
Anyways i still love you with all my heart but i dont want to get a name. I mean yes i am going to hang out with you just not every second of everyday. And if you think thats a dick move then oh well my world doesnt revolve around you. Sorry its harsh.
what we could have been, 10:06 PM.
It use to be all fun and games until you found out that i liked you. Now i miss the way things use to be. We were best friends and then i started liking you. Everything changed then. Its been almost 4 years since i liked you and i really really do. I want to be with you, but i dont think you can say the same. When i think of you my heart flutters and my stomach gets all full of butterflys. I really do like you.
That day when i told you i liked you did you mean that you didnt care? Or did you mean it a different way? I dont know because you wont tell me. I guess i'll just wait till school to see if you do or not? -- People always tell me to just get over you. 'theres more than just him out there Caitlin' I dont care! I like him. And you cant help who you like. I mean i liked other people juring that 4 years but not as much as you. Maybe in high school i'll find someone that likes me. I really hope so. Because i hate how im all alone and that im always the tag along with all my taken friends. They say it doesnt bother them but it probably does. I know they dont want me there and i dont want to be there watching them cuddle and kiss and look into each others eyes lovingly, it just makes me think of you. I hate thinking of you because it makes me un-happy and happy at the same time. The things that make me happy is just thinking about talking to you, hnging out with you, if maybe theres something in the future with you or just you. But the things that make me un happy are thinking about what you said about not caring, was that necessairy? Like really.
That day when i told you i liked you did you mean that you didnt care? Or did you mean it a different way? I dont know because you wont tell me. I guess i'll just wait till school to see if you do or not? -- People always tell me to just get over you. 'theres more than just him out there Caitlin' I dont care! I like him. And you cant help who you like. I mean i liked other people juring that 4 years but not as much as you. Maybe in high school i'll find someone that likes me. I really hope so. Because i hate how im all alone and that im always the tag along with all my taken friends. They say it doesnt bother them but it probably does. I know they dont want me there and i dont want to be there watching them cuddle and kiss and look into each others eyes lovingly, it just makes me think of you. I hate thinking of you because it makes me un-happy and happy at the same time. The things that make me happy is just thinking about talking to you, hnging out with you, if maybe theres something in the future with you or just you. But the things that make me un happy are thinking about what you said about not caring, was that necessairy? Like really.
what we could have been, 7:00 PM.
